oVeR d'WeEkeNd !!!

Two days, 48 hours… how do they go by you… just can’t realise… anyway…there was some activity that happened in the last two days…
Saturday spent with Neha and Tushar again...Seems that my entire life is revolving around these two people these days :) anyway… we went to Nehru place to get our computers fixed and also buy some stuff… bought two web cams, 50 CDRs, 2 CDRWs, 1 CD case, and one brand new computer… though that was taken home by sushant...he was there with his sister and jijaji to buy a machine…

We spent a good 4 hours at the shop in Nehru place while the machines were being repaired and a new one being assembled…and then went to neha’s place to install the two web cams that we had bought…and somehow messed up with her NIC settings and she could not connect to the net anymore with her desktop…hehehehe.. Anyway... we left in the evening... tushar dropped me home…and then rushed to his place to get ready for office…

Yesterday...

Sunday was a less active day... spent most of the time in front of my desktop yesterday…copying CDs, downloading music and all…went to the market in the evening to buy the VCD of ICE AGE…one of the animation movies I love to love…

And back again in the office today…another week to go…waiting for Saturday to come over again…so that I can spend another weekend...doing something or the other…but I think I seriously need to think about doing something worthwhile in the weekends…

What can be done? Rather what all would I like to do over a weekend:

~Learn Guitar
~Study (something relevant to my job)
~Meet friends
~Watch a movie

Can’t really figure out… will need help as to what all can be done to make these two days count !!!

RaDhe rAdHe !!!

And Ladies and Gentlemen this is my CAR... Radha :) The fotograf was clicked in the parking lot of Dilli Haat

this foto becomes special to me for a number of reasons actually...
1) I am there :)
2) It has Radha
3) This is her first ever foto on the net

and last but not the least...

This has been clicked by one of the most special friends i have... Thank you Neha for this special and amazing foto.. and do not forget to thank chachi for the camera as well..

please welcome my car... a not so new but still shining Fiat Palio 1.2 NV Sport...mmmmmmmmmmuah to my chamko

V 3 :)

We three in Dilli Haat today, Me, Neha and Tushar... The foto was taken in my car :) after we moved from there.. thanks tu Forni the foto has come out real good...

This was a good afternoon spent in the company of two great friends... and ofcourse my radha...
Life is Good :)

thank you God :)

CoNgRaTuLaTiOnS !!!

This is about me and my blog... something that started in September 2004...my first blog... here is what I wrote...

“I would like to trigger a discussion on how life treats us and how it should be treated...when do we take risks in terms of education, jobs, and when is the right time for trying to settle down...when do you think money would drive discussions about changing jobs and when we start looking for a job if we are now looking for a profile change.. maybe more responsibilities.. and so on....”

When I read today.. I am like... what was I thinking when I wrote this... was the entire world waiting for me to start writing or what... :) I am smiling today on what I wrote on the 15th of September...but seems that I have come a long way from there...my need to depend on people for my emotional outbursts has reduced...I feel more independent emotionally now, more stable and also I feel that there are a few friends like Tushar, Pawan, Neha, Aarti, Vimita, Raina and a few more who are reading my blog but I am not aware of would be able to know what I am upto always.. So basically we keep in touch directly or indirectly.

I do not know where each of us is heading...but still I feel that I am doing that li’il which would keep me close to my friends... God bless them all!!!

Now why I really am writing this post... to congratulate myself on complete a 1000 visitors J I am not sure if about 50% of these visits are mine... but still that leaves me with 500 visits to my page J and I am really happy for myself...Actually I am feeling as if I am getting the attention that I always want!!! and thanks to everyone who reaches this page... by mistake or intentionally...spends a minute or more reading what is written...or closes the window...feels like commenting on what I have written...or ignores me thinking that I am one more of those stupid freaks who is completely confused in life...I reached the count of a 1000 visits...What follows is a break of what has been happening on this page since November 17:

Visits:
Total: 1028
Average per Day: 20
Average Visit Length: 4:45

I am happy!!!

TwO gUyS, a GirL, aNd a PizZa pLaCe !!!

Prarthna was the elder of the two daughters at home, which meant she had to be the one taking up more responsibilities, being the one who is following the right path and hence be an example for the younger sister who was about 10 years younger to her. Prarthna was an intelligent student and was very focussed and dedicated towards things she wanted to achieve in life. The restrictions at home, the people around ensured that she stayed back home after school or college or work and spent time doing things, which most of the girls in today’s metropolitan life run and shy away from.

Kabir had been through similar phases in life, but at this point in time was a much more independent person. He had been through his bad phases and good phases of life and these days was enjoying a satisfying bachelor’s life with a good job in hand. But something inside him used to keep pinching him all the time. He had been through a very bad relationship, and had made up his mind not to get into another ever. And at the same point of time knew that he needed someone to share his days with. Kinda confused guy he was about having someone in his life or not.

Utkarsh, on the other hand was a person who was a very good human being and he did not realise that a lot of people like him for what he had with him. He used to be sad about things that he noticed that were not with him. He was working in a good firm with good prospects and was working towards getting better there as well looking for better opportunities these days. Also Utkarsh was a college mate of Kabir. These two guys knew each other for over 4 years now but they had never sat down and discussed themselves or their lives as friends... acquaintances we can say they were...

Kabir met Prarthna through internet; initially they were using only emails. And Emails which were pages long, coz for some reason, both Prarthna and Kabir were pouring out to each other through this channel.

Then one day this happened:
Kabir went to Meerut for a family function where for some reason he had to be connected to the internet and there she was Prarthna, online on a messenger screen...Happy and excited Kabir said a Hi to her to which there was a prompt reply. This was just coincidence that both of them were online at the same time. And this is when Kabir gave her his phone number and asked her to call him up once he was back in Delhi.

She called but the first conversation was on the best conversation they had...Kabir was busy with his work and he did not want to keep the phone down either, Prarthna as usual had a lot of words to share this time too... And then Kabir fell ill... too bad a state he was in, and Prarthna with her phone calls kept him going. He started liking her for her thoughts, and respecting her more then liking her for whatever he was learning about her, and about the a lot of things which was knew existed but had not seen or felt. He became a li’il better and could work on his computer now, which meant that he could talk to Prarthna the entire day through the net which he did...

Utkarsh also came to know Prarthna during this while, from Kabir and started liking her. Infact by this time, both Utkarsh and Kabir were in love with Prarthna, and she was good friend of both of them. Kabir and Utkarsh were getting to be good friends too these days... and with time Prarthna developed emotions (which can be labelled as love towards Kabir)
So basically leaving Kabir happier, and Utkarsh sad again... coz of one more thing that he did not have. A classic love triangle this was becoming. Also Kabir and Utkarsh were able to talk about this situation freely with each other which was the good part, but this left a very hollow feeling with Kabir, as he started thinking would things have been different between Prarthna and Utkarsh if he was not there.

While these three were trying to cope up with their own emotional baggage, Prarthna got a job offer in Australia which she could not miss as she had been working for it for a lot time and finally she got the opportunity. 45 days left for Prarthna to join the firm and 45 days left for this classic love story to turn the way destiny had planned.

Utkarsh wanted to get out of his frame of mind, and move on...which was difficult coz after ages he had really felt for a girl like he was feeling for Prarthna. He was expressive and vocal about his feelings and in a way that wa very hard for any girl to avoid... Kabir on the other hand was a very demanding boyfriend... but he also loved Prarthna a lot and I guess the time that he was able to spend with her, made her get inclined towards him.

Prarthna had to go to Australia in a few days... she loved Kabir and really liked Utkarsh. The feelings were distinct and different. She knew Utkarsh loved her, but she could not love him back...but for what Utkarsh was, he was someone worth loving a lot; this is something that Kabir felt!!! Prarthna was going away...to return in 4 years... Kabir knew that he could not leave the thought of Prarthna, but the reality of life was that he had to let go...

All three of these friends had to let go...Kabir had to let go his love, and he knew that he would have to get married in another year to girl his parents choose for him, Utkarsh had to let go his love too, first because she loved his friend, and then again because she was going away. Prarthna had to let go her love, coz she knew that she had to be out of her country for 3 years, and her contract said that she could not marry before her project finishes.

Kabir would be back to his previous self after Prarthna goes, with a pain inside his heart, and a hollow inside his soul...

Utkarsh would continue living life the way he always left, with fond memories of his love, and the love he could not get...

Prarthna would go away from her family, her friend, her love alone in a country, where she would be doing what she always wanted to...

Is love supposed to leave you like this!!! Who would tell...?


Why is this story Named: TwO gUyS, a GirL, aNd a PizZa pLaCe !!!
B’coz Prarthna, Utkarsh and Kabir, all three of them were together in front of each other only once... In Nirula’s (The pizza Place)

LoOKiNg fOr tHe OnE !!! mY gUrU !!!

Time: 20-Jan-2004, 1815 hrs
Place: Sector 15A Club, NOIDA
Occasion: Weekly Meditation Session, Dhyan Foundation.
What am I doing there: Looking for that one minute that would disconnect me from the rest of the world and help me realise myself.
What actually happened?
Prashant called up Dr. Shobha Kaul, CEO, Personal Point and a very senior member of Dhyaan Foundation to let her know that he was there on the first floor of the club waiting for her. She told him that he should look around for Mr. Jain who will tell him the basic exercises. So Prashant looks around for Mr. Jain and finds him sitting along in a room which was beautifully arranged for a meditation session with white sheets on the floor on the Daris (thick mattresses) and he learnt 6 basic breathing exercises. The first one being the Ujjai Breathing, closing your eyes, concentrating on the lower throat and breathing easy…and 5 more excersises…about 20 minutes later, Dr. Kaul comes in…She had that Tej(Aura is the right word in English I guess, not sure though) on her face that comes only from the dedicated meditation and concentration. So this is where the meditation session begins...Sitting in an aasana, and chanting mantras… Starting with the prayer for the Teacher, the Guru: Guru Brahma, Guru Vishnu, Guru Devo Maheshwara…. And moving on to various other mantras including the chanting of the most powerful word in the universe, OM. The next 60 minutes were full of mantras, chants, peace, and a li’il bit of pain ( that was for Prashant coz he was sitting with his back straight on the floor after ages) and then pin drop silence for no idea how long...when Ashish helped us all move from the meditation state to the normal state...

This is when Prashant saw the Yogiji first time, and he was surprised to a see a very down to earth, simple looking man in front of him as the person who was leading this group of people. Prashant was asked why he was there, to which he replied that he was looking for that one minute of his day when he could stop thinking about the rest of the world and get some peace... to which the reply was “Do not come here with a target in mind”. So True...We have talked about expectations in my previous post and here he was again...expecting to get something out of that session...which ideally should not have been the case...anyway...so Sir (or Yogiji) starts asking everyone in that room about how they were feeling during the session...and then one gentleman asked a question which triggered the session for the day. His question was “why is concentration so tough?” And here is whatever I remember of the reply... they talked about what are we about...different answers...summed into one which was “we are a sum total of two things... the body and the soul... antaratma and the panchtatva...we humans are governed and ruled by our desires and that is why when we try to meditate the forces which have those desires make us think that the time we are spending in meditating is useless coz there is so much to do...and our mind cannot concentrate...to break free for this circle of desires and wants, we need someone to guide us and we have to surrender to him...and that person is the GURU...someone who decides what we do...how we do it...and why we do it...and we follow it with extreme devotion and dedication...the one who makes follow and practise discipline...the one who gives us his hand and we hold it to move with fear in this world...to break free we need to give up.. we need to surrender to the ONE.”

This is where that session ended...and here is what I felt and thought after this session ended...

True... a Guru is needed to whom you can surrender...but then how do you find that guru...What was surprising in the session yesterday was...that whenever they talked about Guru, I could recall only one person...My Father...and every word spoken about having a Guru was making him miss more...not because I wanted him to there listening to that conversation, but I wanted myself to be in front of my father, with my eyes closed and listening to him. I realised that something that I was looking for outside was there at my very home and I was not even close to realising it before yesterday. I realised that if I can follow anyone in this world without questioning why, it would be my father and not one else... so here I was back home with my faith reinstated in my Pa and my sincere thanks to Yogiji who made me realise this !!!

Can Prashant be associated with Dhyaan Foundation even if he has a different Guru...not really sure... but whatever said and done...

this 20th Day of January 2005 was special for him as he realised that what he was looking for in the outside world were very much present with him all the time...

God Bless!!!

SiMbLy CoMpLiCaTeD !!!

Assuming there are two ppl in a relationship... what happens next.. to start with everything that my partner does looks so beautiful so mine... and then a few days or weeks or months later the same things become a pain... can't understand what i am saying.. here is an example...in the beginning.. when my girlfriend wants to know where i am, what i was doing while i was away... i would say.. wow she is so concerned about me.. she cares and takes interest in what i am doing... cut to three months later date.. and the same questions would start annoying me.. and i might start saying that she is invading my privacy, i do not have any independence in my life... things like this are very common.. but what i am trying to understand is how come two ppl who used to like the same things about each other a few months back now do not want it from each other anymore...
why do i think this happens... i am not sure.. why.. but here is what i think.. to start with our expectation levels are low.. and we are more focussed towards understanding the other person and taking such things as incidents then habits.. and then with time, when things move from a selfless commitment to a relation where its more like a barter system.. where i give for what i get.. things start troubling us.. and we start comparing... and use statements like.. why am i suppposed to compromise all the time.. why do i have to answer all the questions all the time.. and so on.... where is the answer.. is it in another relationship... or some modern age guru would need to take avatar and tell us what needs to be done.. or is it that we all understand what needs to be done.. and we just do not do it !!!!

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ok.. switch over to another thought here....

two ppl in a relationship... both of them claiming that they are giving their 100% to the relationship....and still both of them have a feeling of discomfort and discontent about everything... why... is it because my 100% rarely matches with my partner's 100%.... so when i say that i need sometime with her everyday talking to her... then i would get content with say an hour perday.. but because of her schedules or whatever... she can manage to gimme 30 minutes.. which is the best that she could do.. and was obviously her 100% and 50% of my expectation... hua na issue... so basically i have to understand that she cannot do anything better then this.. and may be she needs to understand...that she needs to try a li'il harder then those 30 minutes.. maybe she can actually gimme an hour... who knows...
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but even after knowing then do we really take care of them... i guess not.. why... i think because we are selfish.. and think about us before the other person.. but then why shouldn't i... i cannot be the one who gives away all the time...
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i dunno if i am making it look complicated.. or relationships are really that complicated... i guess they are not... just that we need to understand...

LoNg dRiVe !!! ePiSoDe I

First things first... I HATE PPL WHO DRIVE THEIR VEHICLES IN HIGH BEAM !!! Simbly hate them !!!! They are so much pain in the eyes and on the throat coz everytime i come across some bugger like this i tend to scream and shout and feel like throwing about 1 million stones at his headlights...

Today i am at ease with myself.. i am a li'il more content... why... you will get to know !!!! read on....

Ok.. back to what happened today... got up at 0430 hrs.. and mom insisted that i should sleep for another 30 minutes coz i had to drive the entire day...actually i was not planning to take a bath in the morning...i had slept at 2330 hrs yesterday after a warm bath only !!! but this was my first opportunity to take my radha for a long drive !!! so i finally got too restless and got out of the beautiful warm bed around 0445 hrs... got ready in another 30 odd minutes i guess... now do not ask me what i did in those 30 minutes...:) ok... and then out of my house... cleaning the red beauty and making in shine like a queen... we finally managed to leave at 0611 hours... me, ma, pa, mamaji and my cousin honey !!! listening to the beautiful voice of lata ji..."thumak chalat ram chandra, baajat painjaniya"... good first hour... i drove 36 kms in the first 40 minutes and then another 30 in the next 20... so when i looked at ma tripometer at 0712 hrs it was reading 66 kms... no bad :) and this was the time to give my car a test.. and see how it figures at a three digit mark... i was really not keen on letting papa see the speedometer.. and that is why mamaji was asked to take the co-drivers seat... so.. another 10 minutes and radha was moving at 100 kmph in all its glory... what a feeling... very stable... noiseless... feeling of security... and control... and Hari Om Sharan singing " Shri Hanuman Chalisa"... I guess the car was getting insprired from song and flying on the road... but after about 15 overtakes.. and early morning slow moving traffic i managed to drive only another 65 kms in the next one hour... had to stop at toll plaza as well and then a traffic jam (which ate about 20 odd minutes) when we were moving back in to Uttar Pradesh from Haryana...

Ok this is interesting too...We moved from UP (NOIDA) to Delhi to Haryana (Faridabad, Ballabhgarh, Palwal, Hodal etc.) to UP again ( Kosi, Mathura, Agra, Govardhan)....

Ok.. back to the border...after some good speeding up and a few more overtakes on the beautiful road... we readed Taj Mahal's Parking at 0915 hrs a total of 204 kms in about 3 hours.. not bad...
Had some good tea there ... with my dad giving the Chai Wala some very good tips on how to make tea.. and the chai wala made some really good tea there.. lotsa milk... less of sugar...more of chai patti.. good good adrak !!! and there it was... a good refreshing cuppa tea in a good sunny winter morning... we chose not to take a vehicle to the Taj Mahal but walk.. and finally reached there in about 10 odd minutes... One thing work talking about here.. the As#&%E attendent in the parking there said.. Sir main aapki Indica dho doon... ekdum chamka dunga.. I can't tell you how pissed how was.. that Son of a Gun called my Palio an Indica !!! though i wanted the car to be cleaned but i was forced to change my mind thanks to this comment from that Man of God !!!

Ok... so inside the Taj Mahal's premises.. enjoyed some good 2 hours in the sun there !!! and my dad really helped himself out with the camera and we managed to take about 22 fotos there... also ma and pa got two snaps clicked by one of the professional fotografers there... good fotos they are.. he clicked them and managed to give us the prints and the negatives in about 60 minutes...
Can't tell you how Jealous and envious i get when i see all those foreigners with the kinda cameras they carry... Cannon, Fuji, Sony, Minolta, SLRs, Digicams, Digital SLRs... you name it you can see it there... anyway... i know i will have something of that sort sometime very soon... so we finally move out of there after enjoying a good foto session and a good walk in the sun... and then we have food at a very very local dhaba there.. where we had lotsa food... excellent dal fry.. good fresh rotis...masta achaar... tasty mix veg... awefully expensive Malai Kofta :).... we had a good tummy full of food there around noon... 1200 hrs and then moved out.. now the question... where to go... do we go to vrindawan... or to mathura or to dayalbagh or govardhan...

pa wanted to go to radha kund.. as the last time we went for parikrama we were walking in the night and we could not check out the excellent architecture and relegious values of Mansi Ganga, Radha Kund, Suman Sarovar ( Dau Ji ka Mandir)... we spent the rest of the photo roll there and i for the first time saw monkeys enjoying the sun on the roof of my car... dunno it was the colour of the car that attracted them or what.. but still there were at one time 4 monkeys enjoying themself on the roof of my car when we were walking around the sumar sarovar... from there went to Radha Kund... heard the story behind it... then we had lotsa of Ganne ka ras.. fresh and cool.. with lemon and ginger and mint... Mazaa aa Gaya !!!!

Now we finally head back towards home.. cancelling the idea of going to brindavan... bye bye rabri, bye bye khurchan, bye bye tikki, bye bye lassi, am i missing these eatables or what.. anyway.. we plan to be back to vrindavan sometime soon again... by the way.. do you know why vrindavan is called by this name... this place once used to be a forest of Tulsi ( not the saas bahu wali tulsi but the real sacred plant of Hindus) and Tusli is also called Vrinda... hence Vrinda-Van :)

and after driving in the traffic... overtaking at least 50 vehicles.. my speedometer making me feel good at 115 kmph at times...i reached home at 1925 hrs... what a good trip it was... tired but not really tired... car thori gandi ho gayi hai... now waiting for tmrw morning when the car wala guy comes in and cleans it in the morning... he would have a some good work to do...

This is where my episode I of the long drive happens... lets see when i get to go on the episode II....

another long drive...
another post...
another satisfying day !!!

When...

eXpEcTaTiOnS !!!

Isn't life all about expectations and not getting what you really need and getting what you not need at times.... i am today writing in a real pessimistic mood... so what i am writing today is something that might or might not be entirely true... but maybe it is the truth... but are we as human beings completely responsible for what happens.. or the intentionally or unintensionally the situations make us do what we are doing... and when we are a part of that situation... we just think about our side of the entire story and not really try to look at what the other person might be feeling or going through...

dunno what i am writing...but i guess i had to take it out of my system.. which i did... does it make sense... i guess not... or maybe it does...

sAd tONiGhT !!!

I am sad right now...
why... can't really answer that... or maybe i can.... or maybe i am not sure...
the only thing that i think i am sure about is right now i want to be alone... which i am in any case... but i really want to go into that shell which keeps you away from the world...
do i know the reason...
may be...
may be not...

lets see how the next two days go.. no office but good and interesting things lined up... taking mom dad to agra... i guess they would go there second time after marriage... twice in over 25 years... just hoping that this trip is a good small family trip...

the thought made me smile...
and i am not back.. to my sad state :)

eMoTiOnS !! a StReAm oF WaTeR iN D HiLLs

Maine aaj kuch aisa kaha ke mujhe laga ki maine achcha kaha... pata nahin... lekin mujhe achcha laga... here it is...

‘°ºOM™: let it flow
‘°ºOM™: like a stream of water in the hills
‘°ºOM™: it always finds its way
‘°ºOM™: and still you do not know where it reaches..
‘°ºOM™: but look at it from any where.. it is still beautiful
‘°ºOM™: and worth being with...
‘°ºOM™: and still flowing

And i feel that our emotions are really to be treated this way... if we continue keeping them inside then we will burst someday.. and if we let them flow then i am sure the result is going to be as beautiful and pure as a stream of water started from a hill...

though like a stream..these thoughts and emotions get influenced by ppl who are looking at them.. trying to change them... getting what they want our of them... using them... adding to them... and they end up not in the way they were initially...

but then life is like that...

nOtHiNg !!!

Is it really necessary to write something in a post... i am not really feeling like writing anything about anything today.... just how the day went...
busy in the first half... talked to a couple of friends in the second... aise hi nikal gaya din... there are times when nothing special might happen in a day of yours and at the end of it.. you think why... could you have done anything other then what you did you make that day special... or can you live the coming day any differently to make it better...

dunno if you can really plan your coming days... i just hope that the coming days bring smile and happiness in everyone's lives !!!!
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GOD !!! tHiS iS fOr YoU !!!

a day someday i want from you
when i live my entire life and a day too

with her holding me tightly
with her whispering in my ears
with her telling me she loves me
with her wiping away my tears

i know that day will come someday
i know that day will bring smile to my face
i know that you have to be fair to me
i know that day you will set me free

tUrNiN bAcK !!!

Last post written last year... first post on the 2nd day of this year... a lot has happened in the last year to me... i think i have really grown both professionally and personally this year 2004... not too sure where to start from though....

2-Jan 2003 is when i gave my last interview with Hughes and joined it on the 6th of Jan... last year on the 6th i realised that the one year i had spent as a tech. support specialist and then a team leader gave me so many opportunities to learn and grow... which i was able to cash on.... also 2003 gave me a relationship that i will regret for the rest of my life... anyway.. that had started around august (i guess in 2003) and came a tragic end which involved a lot of anger, frustration, tears, lossing out on professional respect, and 100 other things.... i finally took on a new job in april 2004 and moved on... from the relationship as well as Hughes...Out of the call centre industry.. what a relief for ppl who still associate call centres with only and only night outs, short skirts, booze, fags, and sex.... but i know that this industry made me look at the most professional of careers... where you do not judge ppl by how they look but completely by how they perform... its my data that speaks from me...and if it speaks well.. then sky is the limit... anyway.. out of the call centre industry and into the IT industry and as Team Lead tech support with a firm called Mantas.... if i write what they used to do.. its great to read it... Mantas develops and maintains softwares which track fraudulant behaviour in the telco and the finance industry.. and it had great clients too... but i did not fit in.... too technical for me.. seems that i had lost the inclination towards tech. during the last 3 years of my work.... anyway... IBM happened in 2004 august and i left mantas... The work that i am doing now.. finally makes me feel that i am on the right track and there is a long way to go....

Ok... lets do this... lemme list all that i can remember of what happened in 2004 for me.. with me.. to me.. by me... not necessarily
in this order !!!
- Completed 1 year in Hughes Software Systems BPO on 6th Jan.
- Complete 25 years of my life in this world on 10th April.
- Got out of the most painful relationship in the first quarter of the year.
- Travelled to Amritsar, went white water rafting, went to kasauli, shimla, jaipur, bhimtal etc.
- Moved out of the call centre industry.
- Moved into the IT industry.
- Left two jobs and joined two as well :)
- Bought my first guitar.
- Bought my first AC.
- Bought a lotta keychains... i guess the total that i have now is around 130.
- Virat opened his furniture showroom in Faridabad.
- Ankur Wahal left HCL Bpo and joined PWC.
- Narang got promoted to the post of an Assistant Manager (read MOD).
- I went thru one of the worst times of my life.. had chicken pox... what a painfull time that was...- But during that time i started talking to someone, who i never knew would become so special for me...
- I met one of my email friends, who is a perfect example of beauty with brains...
- Apan dono bought a lappie for her.
- I started working with ppl who had more experience the my total age :)
- Made a few good friends...rediscovered some of the old ones and graduated to being a friend with them from just a known guy....
- First time in my life thought of moving out of india to work.- Got face to face with serious talks about me getting married now (blush blush)
- Seriously thought about getting married and then got really scared over the thought.
- I BOUGHT MY FIRST CAR... FERRARI RED 1.2 PALIO NV SPORTS... MMMMMMMMUAH .....
- I think i am in love again.. not writing fell in love.. coz i really do not think that i fell...
- I started writing blogs.... - I think 2004 helped me clear certain doubts about life and helped me look at ppl from a new.. not completely new.. but still a new
perspective... i have started appreciating ppl for whatever good they have.. and not really look at the negatives.. till the time they really come ahead and show that side of theirs...
- I have become a more firm believer in God.


i am not sure if i have been able to recall everything that happened... i would really like to thank the Upar Wala that he gave me this year to live..... and thank everyone who has been associated with me in some form or the other for everything they did for me... they did not do for me...against me...to me whatever :) coz if it had not happened.. i would have been a different person which i am sure i would not have liked.


may be continued......