I am not feeling good at all today... right from the moment i woke up...
Its empty... not a single word i have spoken since morning... except the thank you to the bus driver... and a good morning to lady at the reception in the office...
Looked at the amount of work... pretty neat it is... and will keep me occupied for a long time for sure...
Tried calling home... did not get through... tried calling a friend... did not get through either...
I guess I will start talking to myself soon :D
Or better... come back to the blog... Being alone and liking it and not liking it and rest, have been major contriutors to me writing on the blog for over 3 years now... and looks like its going to stay this way for a while...
Abhishek left for India yesterday... it was kinda strange to drop him at the airport... and he sms'ed he has reached just fine... so cewl... he is not going to like a lot of things there... but i hope he can find a lot of reasons to like India too... After a while, the comfort, the discipline everything makes life a li'il too easy in firangland... and thats when, if you are back in India... a lot of things suddenly look strange, and irritating... i have felt that myself, however I have been lucky to also see a gradual change in how things have been back home... and i am glad they are changing...
A few days back i got into an interesting conversation with a friend, about how friends happen... is it an automatic process? or just a function of time? and how do you loose people? is that an automatic process again? or just a function of time?
there is no specific answer to this question, I guess... when you start knowing someone, there is a certain need of an extra effort to let the person know that (s)he is wanted and there is something that can be looked forward too.. most of us intelligent people would agree that one should know this already and thats maybe why a walk towards friendship started, however I tend to disagree with that a li'il and believe that nothing is going to be mine without an effort... life is not automatic, it has gears...
Now I might be cruising at a steady speed after a while, but still to start with, i need to carefully select the amount of acceleration, the clutch, the gear level, the rpm everything... otherwise, its going to stop... a few patient ones would try again... and again... and after a while a few of us might just give up... The interesting thing is that in a day, we have to deal with many life's such geared mechanics... the getting ready for the office, the finishing the deadlines at work, calling or writing to a few people other than work, finding out time to do something that cheers you up... everything needs an effort.. but i guess EVERYTHING does need an effort...
Pretty long post eh...
I am feeling better now... let me go grab something to eat for myself...
Its empty... not a single word i have spoken since morning... except the thank you to the bus driver... and a good morning to lady at the reception in the office...
Looked at the amount of work... pretty neat it is... and will keep me occupied for a long time for sure...
Tried calling home... did not get through... tried calling a friend... did not get through either...
I guess I will start talking to myself soon :D
Or better... come back to the blog... Being alone and liking it and not liking it and rest, have been major contriutors to me writing on the blog for over 3 years now... and looks like its going to stay this way for a while...
Abhishek left for India yesterday... it was kinda strange to drop him at the airport... and he sms'ed he has reached just fine... so cewl... he is not going to like a lot of things there... but i hope he can find a lot of reasons to like India too... After a while, the comfort, the discipline everything makes life a li'il too easy in firangland... and thats when, if you are back in India... a lot of things suddenly look strange, and irritating... i have felt that myself, however I have been lucky to also see a gradual change in how things have been back home... and i am glad they are changing...
A few days back i got into an interesting conversation with a friend, about how friends happen... is it an automatic process? or just a function of time? and how do you loose people? is that an automatic process again? or just a function of time?
there is no specific answer to this question, I guess... when you start knowing someone, there is a certain need of an extra effort to let the person know that (s)he is wanted and there is something that can be looked forward too.. most of us intelligent people would agree that one should know this already and thats maybe why a walk towards friendship started, however I tend to disagree with that a li'il and believe that nothing is going to be mine without an effort... life is not automatic, it has gears...
Now I might be cruising at a steady speed after a while, but still to start with, i need to carefully select the amount of acceleration, the clutch, the gear level, the rpm everything... otherwise, its going to stop... a few patient ones would try again... and again... and after a while a few of us might just give up... The interesting thing is that in a day, we have to deal with many life's such geared mechanics... the getting ready for the office, the finishing the deadlines at work, calling or writing to a few people other than work, finding out time to do something that cheers you up... everything needs an effort.. but i guess EVERYTHING does need an effort...
Pretty long post eh...
I am feeling better now... let me go grab something to eat for myself...
Hmm...I like the title of this post...Phir se phone karna thodi der mein mil jayega
ReplyDeleteacceleration, the clutch, the gear level, the rpm missing Radha?
Oh yeah EVERYTHING DOES need an EFFORT!
And believe you me, talking to the self/writing on the blog can be therapeutic and always has a balmy effect :D
Cheers!
and and and MF!
ReplyDelete# Reeta...
ReplyDeletethanks... phir try kiya re.. nai mila... sad hai kaafi.. par koi nai...
Radha, yes for sure... i am totally missing her... it would be so good to drive around with her in this more dicliplined land...
however the mention of those parts were intended to highlight the presence of various things that needs something to move on right...
yea.. blogs are nice :)
MF? !!!! you might always be if you get an RSS feed :D
Efforts yes...but life is transitional too with lots of mundane co-travellers!
ReplyDeleteChin up, at least you are realising wiser things in the heap of mundane activity.
Q: does my post on Chicago Weather forecast hold true for your moods too....?
@ Jadedism...
ReplyDeleteyou are right... thanks...
i would need to read that post.. have not yet....
You are not feeling good today ? mmm i think the climate is bad and it also happens to be a monday...so monday blues tho zaroor hoga..so dont worry things will soon get better
ReplyDeleteyou didnt speak to anyone/empty...i say good..not good to speak on a monday morning :) Soon when u are back u will speak more and more
haa reception lady ko good morning bol diya na...full marks u will be fine now :))
a lot of things looks strange....though i have lived in firang land for maybe not even 10% time of my life a lot of things still looks strange to me..like taking half hour to get into the airport..i mean Get into the airport from outside forget abt getting boarding pass and all that jazz....traffic jam in the airport..lol anyways i am digressing i can talk at length on these...
Effort is required with everything ...every single thing. So when it comes to relationships what makes us think otherwise i dont know :))
Pretty long reply too :))
Do tell us what did u eat :)
have a fantabulous day
...and like I said ...Rise and Shine!
ReplyDelete# Sharanya... thanks dear for your long comment :)
ReplyDelete# anony...
thanks :)
u r so right, everything needs an effort... conscious effort sometimes..and unconscious at other times... but an effort nonetheless...
ReplyDeleteand wish ur monday ends on a bright note :)
Hey Om,
ReplyDeleteI can understand the feeling in a firangland but I think its just your health that's not letting you enjoy the weather and the change.
You have so many beautiful people to listen to you everyday even if it's through your blog,does it really make a difference.
I think everything is for a definite reason and there is lots to be discovered in the whispers of silence.I wish I could ever get away from this peppy life I am living.
I so long to be alone and trust me its actually a treat to be in seclusion.Remember I told you about mine in February,I am really looking forward to that one.
You are much mature and wise than me,I don't feel like telling you my take on life..Its kinda "Happy Go Lucky" types..Well thats me then..
A Butterfly if I may say...
You take care dear and feel loved,D
@ mayuri...
ReplyDeleteyeah.... thanks...
:)
@ Deepti...
thanks for the lovely words... you take care.. God bless !!!
Oho fir karna kabhi to milega :D
ReplyDeleteRSS I don't likey...I prefer to click the link from my blog/simply type it out :D And I do that about 50 times every day...my hands...they just lurveeeee the keyboard.