SiMpLy CoMpLiCaTeD...

alice....
has written about what she is feeling this days in her relationship...

she loves her boyfriend...

he loves her too..

and still there is some emptyness around...

she feels happy alone.. she thinks he is too good to her... and so on an so forth... you might like to read what she has written.. just make sure that you do not aggrevate the pain she is going thru...

her post reminded me of the painful times i went through when i was in a relationship... i certainly am more happy without a relationship today as compared to what i suffered...

this march end it would be 2 years that i broke up.. yes i feel that at times there should be someone for me to hear me out.. someone who can give a shoulder to rest.. someone who would just be around...

but all these feelings are so temprary in nature that i have even stopped bothering... and is that killing something inside me as a person.. am i loosing out on my emotional ratios... am i over with the passion in my life... would i never be able to love anyone ever again...

i guess not... i am still a very emotional ass... i still can cry when i do not get what i want... i still have the same passion for a lot of things... ican still love.. but a women in my life... maybe i am not really want it... coz i am afraid...

because i am afraid that things change..
because i am afraid that i loose my space...
because then i will have to think before i speak...
because then i will not be myself anymore... there would not be any i or you there would be a we "there was a time when i used to love this line, however today this like brutally murders my individuality, which i hate to even think about"

and a lot of other "because" lines...

but then does that mean someone who is in a relationship should get out of it only because there are a few things that do not seem right...

if i judge it from a very practicle point of view, i would suggest moving out... not to look around for one more person.. just move out of the concept called a relationship.. live your life.. and if you still feel that the person stays very very important for you and worth leaving that independence go back to him her and pray that (s)he is around...
but is that really possible... you have to and you should snap off relationships actually... you can continue streching things as long as u can.. b in a lot of pain yourself.. and let the other person keep wondering too.. but thats not being fair...

so what was i thinking when i read what alice wrote.. what should she be doing...
i think she is in a situation where she loved to eat sweets and had a li'il too much of it... something that we feel when diwali is just over... no more sweets please feeling... i guess the only option as someone has very very rightly mentioned in the comments on her post... give space... and also go ahead with your life.. if you still need him.. come back... and i will add to it... pray he is still around..

but alice girl.. go live your life for a while... lets yourself loose... know yourself better yourself... just be alice or whatever your name is... and then see where you reach... come back if you feel like... or carry on if you are happy... you will always have someone or the other to take care of you.. in a friend, in a lover, in a boyfriend, in a stranger, in a parent, or in GOD !!!