For about 2 weeks, I have been thinking of writing why I had a series of unsuccessful relationships in my past, and why I still know how to MESS things up BIG time and why I think I am a misfit when it comes to relationships :D
Just that I have not been able to gather enough courage to go public with that amount of truth...
I should start an anonymous blog !!! or steal someone's diary and write what I want to in there... or hack someone's account and post it in their name !!!
what else can i do?
Write it on a wall in UK :D when no one is watching... Graffiti... with the crazy people I know here, it might just sell for millions...
Make a painting out of my thoughts... again worth some greenies...
Umm... take pictures and say what i want to say in code... Naah... I make an attempt to take happy pictures or make them look encouraging.. with some exceptions of course !!!
What else?
Talk to someone about it? I did... with three friends...
One took a split second to agree to the fact that I suck !!!
the other gave me a lot of gyan and tried to pep me up, and partially agreed...
and the third, made fun of me and applauded at the honest confession !!!
For some reason, I am not feeling too bad about it... there are good things about me, there are bad ones too... Not being able to handle people I love is one of the BADDEST ones !!!
Why am i writing about it right now?
Valid point...
And I am doing it ,
Because I think i should take that thought of thinking about writing about thinking about why I suck should be out of my system...
And because I have been carrying this thought for a long time... years maybe !!! It needs to go out of my system... it need a body wash that can clean things from inside...
Or maybe I just need to eat at a dhaba, have chai at a road side stall, drive the entire night, have a few paranthas at murthal, honk the horn when i feel like, have a few golgappas till my eyes and nose start running, flip through the useless TV channels, etc etc...
Ok... so two things now...
1. No Gyan please :) take this post into your stride and humor :)
2. Read the previous post and help me out !!! not with Fishing Rods and instructions on how to fish, but with some FISH :)
Just that I have not been able to gather enough courage to go public with that amount of truth...
I should start an anonymous blog !!! or steal someone's diary and write what I want to in there... or hack someone's account and post it in their name !!!
what else can i do?
Write it on a wall in UK :D when no one is watching... Graffiti... with the crazy people I know here, it might just sell for millions...
Make a painting out of my thoughts... again worth some greenies...
Umm... take pictures and say what i want to say in code... Naah... I make an attempt to take happy pictures or make them look encouraging.. with some exceptions of course !!!
What else?
Talk to someone about it? I did... with three friends...
One took a split second to agree to the fact that I suck !!!
the other gave me a lot of gyan and tried to pep me up, and partially agreed...
and the third, made fun of me and applauded at the honest confession !!!
For some reason, I am not feeling too bad about it... there are good things about me, there are bad ones too... Not being able to handle people I love is one of the BADDEST ones !!!
Why am i writing about it right now?
Valid point...
And I am doing it ,
Because I think i should take that thought of thinking about writing about thinking about why I suck should be out of my system...
And because I have been carrying this thought for a long time... years maybe !!! It needs to go out of my system... it need a body wash that can clean things from inside...
Or maybe I just need to eat at a dhaba, have chai at a road side stall, drive the entire night, have a few paranthas at murthal, honk the horn when i feel like, have a few golgappas till my eyes and nose start running, flip through the useless TV channels, etc etc...
Ok... so two things now...
1. No Gyan please :) take this post into your stride and humor :)
2. Read the previous post and help me out !!! not with Fishing Rods and instructions on how to fish, but with some FISH :)
