The Detached !!!

I am by nature a person who gets bored with certainty and predictability in my personal life...

If I know too much about something then also I get bored and detached...

If I know nothing about something for a long time then also I get bored and detached...

I think if I cannot look forward to something I get bored and detached...

Over a period of the past few years, I have been so much detached with most of the things and people around me that its becoming harder to create strong ties today... and I usually do not feel too bad about loosing out on them... and the result is that people who care about me end up getting disappointed...

Not sure if this will change because as a person my needs, expectations, wants etc are limited and I try hard to ensure that I can take care of everything myself instead of sharing it with someone... If there is a need at times... I would not really try to zero in on one person who would like to hear me out but call up or meet just about anyone to talk to... It works just right for me... or I would just be quiet for a while and let myself talk to myself and hear myself out...

Let me remember a few strong ties that I still cherish for my own sake, today...

~ Parents... Nothing is bigger than them !!! NOTHING... Anything in the world for them, and I do not care if that needs me to give up on everything else in this world...

~ My Car... More then a car she is a trophy for me... A result of my hard work and a true extension of my personality... Likes attention, does not need too much of it.. Is more or less trouble free except the regular service it needs.. Is a slow starter from zero velocity, but once its revved up properly nothing can even think of competing... Technically sound... and almost the best a car company could have made...

~ My camera.. umm.. no, rather Photography... Another something that keeps me happy and how I like to be... gives me the moments I like to see over and over again...

~ Arobindo Sinha... A friend for over 4 years.. Says it, if he does not like it on my face... and makes fun of me if he does like something... someone my parents are fond of too... almost like a member of the family...

~ Narang... The best at handling things!!! A jack of everything and a master of more !!! an inspiration to be better personally and professionally....

~ Mags or Meghana... One of the best creative people I know of since college... Have acted together, directed together, fought, laughed... one of my best buddies...

~ Tushar Goel... Is around when needed... and happy with himself most of the time... He does not socialise much and there have been mishaps that I have seen with him... He might not be one of the most admired people around.. but for me he has been one of the most genuine people to be with...

~ Nimisha Bhagat... One of the best singers I know of... A darling to the core... Has laughed the most on my silliest of jokes and always has been an encouragement...

~ Bharti... Know her for about 2 years now...Sweet smiling buddy who I miss at times for the sparkle in her voice and a chirp in her tone... We have met just 3 times.. And that too for time less then an hour.. But worth it...

~ My group from Hughes... The best people in this world... Almost 3 years that I left the company and people have moved around... still everyone is closer today to each other...

There are many more people/things that have played a part in my life and I can fill pages while talking about them and how they have effected me… but as of now I will stop here only… and wait for a time when I come back to this thought again…

Till then keep reading about something else somewhere or here :)