dO gUyS aNd GaLs DiFfEr !!!

Have been thinking over this for a few days now...

Are gurls any different when it comes to choosing a boyfriend and/or a husband as compared to guys when they are on the lookout for a gurlfriend/wife...
I will start with what guys usually look out for... (This is not about me or anyone in specific, but what I have seen and noticed)
Gurlfriend :
~ Should look good, no no.. should look reeealy good...
~ Should be able to go out when we have time...
~ Should be...........
damn !!!! I cannot figure out what guys want from a girlfriend.... oh yes....
~ Should not start talking about commitment and all...
~ Should be open to physical relations...

And when it comes to getting married, we completly change our stands.. and want a different person as a wife...
~ She not being very beautiful is ok, she basically should understand me and my family...
~ Spending time together is essential, but not at the cost of individual space and independence...
~ Should be commited towards me and my family...
~ Should not have any history of affairs...

Strange how we want two completely different persons in our lives at different stages... I guess most of the affairs turn to relationships and then to marriages as the two ppl involved grow together from the first stage to second and so on...

Why such relationships do not work out.. no idea... i guess because the expectations start changing, life becomes different... not too sure though... someone would need to gimme some gyan on this...

Coming back to the main thought... is there is a difference of stands when gurls are looking at boy friends and husbands... Some might agree and some might not.. Some might get angry hearing this, and some might just ignore it...
Boyfriend:
~ Should be smart...
~ Should have a vehicle to roam around in the town...
~ Should have money to spend as well...
~ Should be commited...

Husbands:
~ Should be fairly good looking... Does not really matter if he is very smart or not...
~ Should be career and family oriented...
~ and so on..... not able to find a lot of words here....

i feel i have not been able to write all what we want and need in the points mentioned above.. but the idea is to figure out myself and with the help of a few ppl who read this blog.. how our expectations.. our aims, our needs change at different stages of our lives... at one point of time we are looking forward to just a good time and companionship... though that continues throughout our lives.. but after a while, some other thoughts and expectations take over.. when we start expanding our thoughts to things which would make our life stable and worth living...

i guess its more like having different coloured balls in a big bucket, every colour is a quality that we need in our partner... at one stage of life, we want some colours and and at a later time, we want to shake the bucket and have the other colours too...

I am also waiting for some colours to come to my life.. wonder what kinda would they be :)

tHuRsDaY NiTe @ HuGhEs !!!

This was written on saturday morning.. holi-day.. but i did not have any net connection for the last two days and could not post it....

Thursday evening.. spent inthe company of some great friends... here is what happened... i went to Flextronics Software Systems BPO ( When i joined and left that company it was Hughes BPO) after my office....
first went to saket bought some movies... ek to jhankaar beats kharidi and the other one the play by Omar sharif "Buddha Ghar Pe Hai". I really like all his plays... ek dum full time masti... so from there i directly went to Aro's place, and saw the play for sometime before going to hughes.... around 2230 i reached there.. and called nishant and all outside...

we sat and talked and talked and talked.. and it was my mom's call that reminded me that i had to be home by midnight and it was already 0100 hrs... anyway... mom had woken up because of some dogs barking outside our house and was kinda concerned that i was still not home... i asked her to go off to sleep as i was planning to be in hughes for some more time... well that sometime was till 0330 hrs which i realised later on...

anyway during all this time we were 4 of us, joined by more ppl at sometimes... but primarily it was me, Aro, Nishant and Sanjit who were talking... then Shubhadeep, Arun Salwan and a few more came in... We have planned to meet on Sunday afternoon @ Fun & Food village for a weekend blast... i am expecting about 15 guys to be there on sunday... let see what happens...

I feel so much at home when i am with friends at hughes... When I joined this company in 2003, we were still very young...young professionals you can say... i was in the first batch for voice.. and in the second batch overall... got trained for only a week before we had to join the production floor... I also had the opportunity to cut the cake in Feb 2003, as I took the first ever customer call that came to Hughes BPO.. What a feel that was... Something that started with me and my batch is going places today.. one of the best places to work in.. not because the management is good, or the infra piece is good... but because the kinda supervisors in that place...the Team leads from my batch take some pride in being a part of the group and take every task up as if its their personal goal... I feel I am very fortunate to be in the company of such hardcore professionals... who even in the bad image of "call centres" have kept Hughes away from the entire bad part of the BPO industry and helped make each other grow, personally and professionally... Thank you God for making me know ppl like these......

oh and yes.. today is holi... Have a blast everyone...Hope our lives are as beautiful and colourful as the colours of holi...

God Bless everyone...

oLDiE GoLdiE fRiEnDs !!!

Today is a day to write...
Why... this is why... I wrote an email to a friend Ajay.... he is with ST Micro... i had lost contact with my school buddies after i moved out of school for i do not remember what reasons.. but still i feel that whatever said and done.. my comfort level with them did not go down.. i am saying this because of the feel that i had after i talked to him... he is one guy who is one of the most hardworking chaps i have ever known.. always on the move.. always willing to work harder and learn more.. and i am happy to find him the same today as well... God bless Ajay, and God bless Gita... who is she? uski biwi hai bhai :)

and then Ajay gave me the number of another of my very dear friends... Alok Gupta... pyaar se baniya bulate the hum usse... had a good 20 minutes of conversation with him... and was happy to see that he was on way to success as well... great chap.. God bless him too...

Its my mistake that i have missed out on many good friends.. because of a lot of reasons.. but i want to get back to them.. it was fun when we were school kids.. and i sure things have changed for all us.. but being in the company of them would still be fun...

God bless them all...
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about what i was upto for the last few days.. here is the best thing that i have done.. apart from what i have talked about upar... i freaked out on tikki, papri chaat and dahi bhalle day before yesterday with Ankur and Tushar.. and yesterday had another treat of Papri chaat with mom... life's going the spicier way :) yummmmmm...

for everyone who has been to noida and missed out on the chaat... here is a good tip... do go to Chatkara, he is usually parked on the chauraha of sector 20,26,27,19.
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Holi aa rahi hai.. mere koi plans nahin hain.. prolly shaam ko will try and meet a few friends... zyadatar dost log ya to gurgaon mein hain.. ya dilli ke bahar... milna to nahin ho payega.... but still.. happy holi to everyone !!!!
Rang Barse... bheege chunar waali rang barse.....

oh yes.. i will play these songs on a loud volume though on saturday.. so if you want to party.. you know where to come.. mera 7000 watts ka deck kis din kaam aayega...

I like that song too... Hori Khele Raghuveera Awadh mein.. Hori Khere Raghuveera....

ME mE Me and me !!!!

WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? Prashant Bhardwaj
WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO? Some stupid Instrumental music playing in the office
THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Corn Flakes
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Red
HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? Masta...thoda hot thoda cool
LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Gabbar
FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? The face, more specific, the eyes
DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS MAIL? Define "like" for me please...someone...
HAIR COLOR? Black
WEAR CONTACTS? Neah...6 by 6 eyesight so far
FAVORITE DAY s OF THE YEAR? Any day can be a favorite day...depends on who all come forward to make it special :)
FAVORITE RELAXATION SPOT? Any hill or a mountain’s edge
ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? Nope
SUMMER OR WINTER? Dilli Ki Sardi
HUGS OR KISSES? Hugs... and kisses
RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? Relationship(S) thanks to history...
CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? Pineapple if you please...
DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK? If they feel like... most of them are going to delete this as another one of the stupid forwards around....hehehe... as expected
WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? No one
WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Everyone
LIVING ARRANGEMENTS? I work for a living...
WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? Whale Done, Outlook, Autocar (do the last two count as books... are magazines books... and vice versa)
WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? The last one I had, it had a bug bunny ka foto on it... i gave it to Ritu...
WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT? Surf, sleep, dream
FAVORITE SMELLS? My gal after her bath...
CAN YOU TOUCH YOUR NOSE WITH YOUR TONGUE? Tried... tried... still trying...
WHAT INSPIRES YOU? Anyone who I feel has something more then me... something that i can learn from... so... basically everyone inspires me...
BUTTERED, PLAIN OR SALTED POPCORN? Pop--corn... why?
FAVORITE FLOWER? Carnations (did I spell it right?)
FAVORITE ANIMAL? Kutta
What I like to wear? Kuch bhi chalega... comfortable hona chahiye.
What I listen to? Too moody... kabhi rock to kabhi fusion... kabhi lounge music to kabhi purane Hindi gaane... sab chalta hai
Things I like to eat? Ghar ka khana... and Chinese...
Favorite drink? Fruit juices
Favorite alcoholic drink? Me no alcohol
The weather I like? The months of April, October, November
How do I rate myself at the moment? Help me with the scale please...
Favorite board game? Ludo and Saanp Seedi
Favorite car? Fiat Palio 1.2 NV Sports, Ferrari Red, UP16F 7821

2nd fRee sErViCe !!!

Radha went for her second free service today, at 7560 kms... 6 months have passed by very quickly.. and a lot has happened during this time... and i am happy that whatever happened happened...seems that i am over-obsessed with my car... i guess a lot of reasons why this is there... i experienced love at first sight for the first time in my life when i saw this car... and then when i bought it.. there was so much content such a great satisfaction of buying my OWN first car... the purchase left me with no money to get a deck.. but then finally i got one deck as well... after a good wait... and during that time.. i had a small radio in mycar. which used to play FM.. driving without music is something that i just could not do.. and then when i finally got my system in the car.. i have loved it.... jussssssssssssst loved it.. the best time of my day is when i driving to the office and coming back.. or driving for anywhere.. whenever...

this is where i wrote about my deck...http://rightmore.blogspot.com/2004/11/have-some-fear-dpalio-is-here_07.html.

Today I think about getting an amplifier and a base tube in the car.. there are not many branded base tubes available around.. infact the only one that i have seen so far is the blaupunkt one.. lets see that looks like a good tube at 5K, there is another tube... Blaupunkt only.. some Velocity segment.. 4250.. that also needs to be looked at... and then a 4-channel amplifier.. lets see.. i guess the entire package would not be anything less then 10000 bucks.. but then i want to spend it.. not right away... but after I buy some RAM, and All-in-One, a Camera ( digital or SLR), a DVD Player... hehehhee.. the list is endless.. so are the expenses.. but then that's life....khush raho mast raho vyast raho...

hey Tushar yesterday sent me an sms... Here it is: V never have what we like, v never like what v have, still v live, love n hope that sum day v'll get what v love, or luv what v have. That's life...
Phir likhunga zindagi !!!

hey and btw.. Radha is shining like new today.. this second coat of teflon is making her looooooooooook sexier then yesterday.....

ShAaDi Ka LaDdOo :)

Waquar came home today... he is getting married on the 27th of this month.. i am very very happy for him.. one gem of a person.... I am sure Saba would be very very happy to have someone like Waquar in her life... He got a beautiful Beige Sherwani for 27th and a black one for 9th. that's when the reception is... or rather call it "Dawate-Walima"... I am planning to get him a stole for his reception.. and my radha would be taking him and saba to the reception area from their house.. i am happy to be a part of this wedding... in whatever way possible.. he is a very dear friend.. and it feels good to see him getting settle down...

Ok.. now the interesting part.. so Waquar comes home.. and bhadkaos mom about she getting me married as well.. arre bhala ye koi baat hai.. teri shaadi ho rahi hai to aish kar.. mereko kyon fasata hai bhai.... then started the discussions of what kinda girl i want to get married.. when should i get married and all those things... I personally feel that the girl that i get married to should have something that I have always longed for in myself... i guess i have always wanted to do something related to music.. and if I can get someone who has some hold on music.. its going to be great....then comes another thought... i still have my roots and attachment in the village... where for obvious reasons ppl are not as open minded and open cultured as saddi dilli.. so this girl who comes into my life and becomes my better half would need to be equally comfortable when we are in the company of ppl in delhi, or around ppl from my village... can that happen.. too much to ask for is it... but i guess if that does not happen.. then there would be issues...i feel in my marriage.. respect for the individual would play the most important role... and then comes love, trust, faith, compromise, responsibility, learning, and so on and so forth... i need to have someone who I would look upto for the rest of my life.. someone i would surrender to.. someone who would be confident enough to surrender to me.. and yet ensure that i am treated like a baby... and a spoilt brat at times.... hehehehe.... i am surprised to see that my expectations are kinda stupid.. i need to be treated like a kid even after i am married....someone who makes me learn things.. someone who knows how to control.. someone who is energetic.. someone who takes pride in what i do.. someone who knows when to shout at me and when to take me in her arms to make me cry.. and still feel better...

hey, but am i thinking about only myself.. i guess i am.. is that right.. i guess it is... bhai afterall.. let her tell me what she wants.. andi will do it.. simple...

"kahin to milegi.. kabhi to milegi.. baharon ki manzil raaheee"

tRiP 2 DiLLi !!!

I have not written for a while... missed out on writing about a "trip to Delhi"... Why calling it a trip to delhi.. well keep reading.. you will know...

I have been in the NCR all my life.. well now close to 26 years... 10th April 2345 hrs would see me complete 26 years in this country, in this city, and I was surprised to find out that I had never visited the Qutab Minar... i have driven down to Agra to see the Agra fort, I have been to the Fateh Pur Sikri.. but how come I missed out on this monument... well.. i never stop surprising myself.. anyway... last saturday, Charu, my cousin came from Assam and was stayin with us for a day before moving on to her Engineering Institute in Longowal, Punjab... I had also asked another cousin of mine Ashu, to come over so that we three could freak out together... and so it happened... we decided to go to the Qutab Minar... I am happy we did that... i just loved it... somehow i feel some peace with broken and old forts and such buildings.. i can spend any amount of time there... why... I have no clue so do not ask me... we took at lot of pictures as well... old stones, broken walls, all the possible shades of brown in those stones and walls, the greenary... everything was making me feel good...I think i will visit all the monuments in Delhi... Humayun's Tomb, Lal Quila, Qutab Minar, Tuglaqabad forts...Bas ek camera kharid loon....
Baki to life is as usual.... same old work... same old office.. sab old people around...

and before i forget i am kinda excited and nervous about meeting this group of people on the 1st of April... some friends from Orkut have taken this initiative of meeting next to next week.. lets see how it goes.. its going to fun... i am hoping it does...

pHuLL TP !!

Not much has happened since i last wrote on the blog...

1) Bharti's security policy does not allow my blog to be visited from the office network.. it has been blocked...

2) I had a good weekend... went to aro's place on saturday after a training in the office and then came back in the night.. he bought be a soft toy.. rather i made him buy one for me...khud to wo kuch nai dega kabhi bhi... and then i tricked him into buying some CDs and tapes.. for himself.. heheheh.. sahi paise kharch hue uske.. but i am sure the money spent was worth it... in the evening watched Page 3.. and felt bad about the cultural erosion the society is going through...still feeling bad about it... next morning sunday... got up at 1100 hrs.. did not do anything but selected some songs that he wanted to take along with him... and then burnt a cd for him to take along...evening was spent with some old guys from hughes.. some of them still with Hughes ( now flextronics) and some with Bharti teletech... good fun it was... after a long long time i got a chance to lie down on grass.. and it was so cewl.. did that while waiting for some guys to join us when we were in the ansals plaza.... slept around 2300 hrs... and tushar called up at midnight to discuss a issue chunna was facing with the camera her chachi got.. which was resolved... not by me.. but chunna herself.. she is a smart gurl.....

3) monday was as usual unwanted.. first day of the week.. never is welcomed :) anyway... tuesday was an off so i was kinda happy about it.. the day went as usual.. work and more....

4) tuesday, mahashivratri... kept a fast... yes Me, I had a fast on tuesday... hehehehehe... and the day was good... slept for most of the time.... relaxed... mast din thaa...

5) wednesday.. back to office.. same ol' schedule... with some new tasks ahead... also Aruna called from Direcway to tell me that my name was shortlisted for the course from IITD that I had applied for.... good now i have something to study every weekend... its going to be hectic... its going to be tough... but i am looking forward to it....

6) Thursday today... Neha's parents' 25th Marriage Anniversary... and guess who was the first one to wish them... hehehehehe.. yes yes folks.. it was me... Pao the great !!!! Infact even uncle had not wished aunty and aunty had not wished uncle... mainse sabse pehle kiya.. and ofcourse along with my wishes were the wishes of neha... who is a li'il far away from all of us these days... but its all in the mind set i guess...

7) Pawan wrote a stinker on the blog.. about me not talking to him... and he does not pick up his phone when i call.. i actually have been trying to talk to him for over a week and he never picks up his phone.. idiot kahin ka...

that's it for today.. more sometime later... when... mujhe bhi nai pata !!!!

WaLkiNg @->--

i am victim of mood swing syndrome these days... sometime in my day i will be happy and delighted... and then i will be sad and alone... and then i will get angry over small things.. and then get irritated by things which i usually ignore easily otherwise....

sahi hai.. kehte hain jo hota hai achche ke liye hota hai... par wo achcha kab hota hai... yeh kaise pata chale... on this journey called life there are so many halts.. so many stops.. so many turns... twists... resorts... and we experience it all.. we walk on the rough country side road with no lights in the nights.. and also drive on the cemented roads in broad day light... and we still carry on...

we at times share our luggage with someone.. or take their load... and then again move on.. with our bags with us... we stop for a while to chat with a few friends... who happen to be there at that time.. and then because someone called.. either they go away or we move on...

there comes a time when we feel that life is coming to a halt.. its going to stop.. and we cannot move any further.. but there like every rose has its thorn.. every night has its dawn.. we see that ray of light showing us the path of move on.. and we walk.. towards we do not know who... towards we do not know what...

am walking... still walking....

gALTi !!! d'MiShTaKe

today in the evening i saw a movie... and the name of the Movie was "bewafa"... why did i see it... well.. vinay is in the town.. the same guy i went to ajmer and pushkar with ( that gave me so much to talk about with neha)... ok.. so we went to this place in noida.. Centerstage Mall... and vinay stood in the line to get the tickets for Page 3... i really wanted to watch that movie.. but for some reason.. instead of page 3 he bought the tickets for Bewafa...

Bewafa is not a movie... bewafa is a mistake... a mistake by anil kapoor...akshay kumar...manoj bajpai and that good for nothing Kareen Kapur. what a waste of time it was..basically if ppl have seen Murder ( arre wo Mallika Sherawat wali movie) Bewafa is basically just a flashback of that... kareena loves akshay, sush is kareena's sister, anil is sush's hubby... sush dies at childbirth leaving twin girls behind, kareena leaves akshay to marry anil to take care of the babies and the family, anil cannot forget sush, no time for kareena, anil realises he needs to change, and at that time akshay meets kareena... lost love blooms again.. no steamy scenes though...anyway... and then anil and manoj plan to let kareena decide what she really wants to do.. and then the world famous in delhi dialogue by Kareena "Raja, ek patni bewafa ho sakti hai... ek premika bewafa ho sakti hai.. par raja...Ek maa Bewafa nai ho sakti" Uffffffffffff... kya dialogue thaa... meri to aankon mein aansoon aa gaye.. dil to kara ek rakh ke doon kaan ke neeche saare actors or director ko...aur producer ko bhi...

anyway.. somehow that snail of a movie finished and i rushed home to talk to nanu.. but she was not yet home... am waiting... lets see when can she manage sometime today...
hey..and a word of advise... PLEASE DOOOOOO NOT WATCH THIS MOVIE.. PLEEEEEEZZZZZZZZZ

RRRRiiiiiiiiiiiNNNNgggggggg !!!!

The day starts with a ring... and the ring tone is.... Pehla Nasha Pehla Khumar :) I pickup the phone & I cannot beleive my ears... Chinki called up :) i was so shocked to hear her voice after so many days that i just did not know what to speak and how to speak... though managed to ask her how she was doing.. how were things... was she taking care of herself or not... and then after 3 minutes and 12 seconds we hung up... and then came the thoughts.... soooooooooo many of them... things that i had to ask her.. things that i had to tell.... and i was like.. Prashant beta.. you are such a dodo... and i was kinda feeling bad about not being able to talk to her properly for so many days.. but it was for sure such a wonderful feeling to get that call.. what a perfect start to the weekend...the voice that i had been missing for so many days...

hey thanks Chinki for that call...

So about two hours later... i decide to call up.. and this time it was her turn to get surprised... hehehehehe.. life is good... after short talk which made me feel soooooooooooo better.. not because this time i could talk about all the things that came to my mind after the morning's call.. but because i could talk.. that feeling was and is great !!! i can keep smiling.. and somehow my "call centre" training is helping here during all these conversations... what we were taught is to imagine what our customer is going thru when we are on the call with him/her. Try to visualise the person.. and i think we all do it.. when we are not able to see the person we are talking to rather communicating with.. we tend to think what that person is doing.. what is (s)he looking like... what is the kinda place (s)he is in and so on....

dunnno what i am writiing.. but it was great talking to you chinki.. thanks again...

Qs, gUiTaRs, ScReAmS, pArTiNG & tEaRs !!!

saturday evening started with rock... 6 bands from all over delhi coming together to perform and showcase their talent in the "9th Great Indian Rock 2005". Out of the 6 bands... 3 were from delhi and they were really awesome.. one thing worth mentioning here was.. the 5 band to perform in this GIR, Nakshatra.. the foundation of this band was laid in the basement of my very own college, PGDAV and i remember jamming along and listening to what they played !!!! Sumit was the guy who was the lead guitarist of this band and also the vocalist.. and on sat. he was there playing the leads for the same band... felt really neat when i could see them perform in one of the most sought after rock band competitions !!!!

the GIR was over in the early night and then me and Tushar, moved towards the domestic terminal, Palam Airport. The occasion... Neha was going to Germany in the night... and we were going to drop her...Something that i knew was always going to happen and never wanted to come face to face with it... we had not been able to talk to each other properly for a few days because of her being really busy with her packing and all.. and even at the airport.. i felt so awkward, felt a li'il out of place coz she was there with her family and i was more of an outsider...
she was going to go.. and i could feel that pain inside me already...of having a friend go away... of not having someone who i could just visit whenever i want...and things that cannot be put into words... i was there just looking at her and the conversations going on between her and the family and also managed to sneak in a few words myself when needed...

finally not before long, the time for her to go was right there greeting us with the devilish smile... and there was nothing that we all could do... i had to let go... shook her hand.. wished her.. and kept looking at her going with she waving to all her family members and me.... she went inside the airport and i kept looking till she vanished in that large sea of ppl who were going to some place or the other...

the feeling while coming back was very awkward... i could feel the hollow inside me... a friend had gone today.. things would change.. life would change...and ofcourse still continue... she would reach germany and start with her confenrence..and after a month to Paris and start with her research.. get busy in her work and and make me proud with all the amazing work she'z gonna do...

after i woke up in the afternoon .. i was feeling really miserable...the heart was really really heavy... i knew she was not where she used to be one day before and that feeling was almost killing me...the entire time we managed to spend together in the past few months flashed in front of my eyes.. and could smile... but the hollow was there... it made me really really sad...
in the evening i tried calling her up at her hotel...could not get thru the first time...and then talked to the security team of her hotel who could not transfer my call to her room and then spent some time listening to the IVR in God knows how many languages before i hung up the next two times i called...

finally managed to talk to her around 2130 my time.. anf was really calm after that.. infact happy to hear the voice of one of my best friends...and happy that she was fit and fine there... i am happy for her.. and i hope she does really well.. she has a presentation tmrw and i am sure she is going to do that very nicely...

Thank you God for giving me the pleasure of such great friends...

and pawan really helped me get back to normal while i was feeling miserable during all this.. thanks pawan...and tushar helped me and her folks out with the number of the hotel room.. thanks tushar...

God bless us all....

mAgS !!!! nOw a MarRiEd wOmAn !!!

Mags got married, with Abhishek today.... they got married in the day and the reception was in the evening... i guess i was the only friend of mags' there before priya and naveen came in (you know they have been together since prep class and are not a wonderfully married couple, God bles them )...felt excited.. felt awkward.. felt strange.. kinda many feelings together... me and mags we together in college, though she was one year junior to me.. and was a very active member of the drama society... and while i was there and when i left.. she was taking very very good care of the cultural society as well in college...

an excellent designer, good actor, good writer... she is a wonderful human being as well... someone who has been around while i was going thru my rough patches with bhoomi and then shikha...

even after we passed out from college... we could manage to keep in touch somehow.. she went to jaipur for her master's course in designing... though i could not visit her even once in these so many years in jaipur.. but we managed to catch up thru emails or phone calls at times...
then she went to panipat to work for a rug factory as a designer...she was handling customers from Europe and US i guess for this firm actually...and all thru these years... her relationship with Abhishek grew stronger and stronger.. and finally today they got married... i am really happy for them.. and was happy to see myself there when she was starting one of the most important journeys of her life...

Mags and me had a couple of agreements.. dunno if they will ever be completed or not...one is she taking care of the room that i will stay in, basically do the designing rather paint a wall in that room to be specific...and the second that i would give her space in my three storey mall.. for a designer showroom which she can use the way she wants.. have a boutique she can have that.. or have a store where ppl find things which are rare to find...genuine art...dunno if any of these can ever come true.. she would be going to Ooty in another 2-3 months to settle down there....
This brings me to another school of thought...do you really need to plan for your life... i mean... there are so many things that you think you will do when you start thinking about life as a long term achievement opportunity.. but the way life takes its turns... things can really turn out different from what you expected...

even i had thought about a lot of things in my life.. but then life kept taking different turns and twists and i am where i am today... though not at all sad about how things are right now in terms of my life.. but then there is always a balance of good and the not so good in your life.. lemme recall what are the not so good things that i feel happened to me.. and what all good things kept me going !!!

1) BAD : I could not get thru engineering.. that was a real setback to my parents..who had high hopes with me... Good: I joined B.Sc. Mathematical Sciences.. one of the best courses in DU and then got an opportunity to be a part of the Cultural Society... helped me spend the best three years of my life in PGDAV college...

2) BAD : I had to breakup with Bhoomi, even though there was nothing wrong between us, but i chose to keep my parents happy instead of continuing with the relationship... Good : I had the perfect relationship with bhoomi, an understanding that most of the couples would just dream of, and had over 3 years of a great friendship, companionship, understanding, commitment, fun and laughter with her.. and at the end of it, I understood my commitment towards my parents and my family in the entire painful breakup episode...

3) Bad : Did not get a job in IT after i completed my masters in software systems.. the IT industry went for a toss... GOOD: I still got a job, though in a "call centre", spectramind.. where i could lay the foundation of a strong career and was guided by the best boss in the world, Bindu Krishnan. I have never met any professional more refined then her.. and she remains and always will remain as the best professional i have met..if i want to be like someone in my life.. then i wish to God that bring me closer to her maturity and understanding of life...

4) Bad : Got into another relationship.. which did not last for long, and gave me a hell of a time...Good : This one bad relationship taught me wht the good friends never could... i grew up thanks to this affair to an more mature and a less emotionally controlled person.. someone who could be out of control from his heart and still keep his brain working for the situation

5) Bad : Neha is going away... BEST : The kinda respect i got as an individual from her, the love and affection and friendship that is going to bind us together even if there are distances physically, her work which makes me proud of her, and her efforts to improve me as a person.. thank you neha for being such a great friend... I have never in my met someone like u and i doubt that i will ever meet a person who is such a perfect example of beauty with brains ever again....

and before i close this post... congratulations and my best wishes to Meghana aka Mags and Abhishek for a happy married life... hope everyday in life brings more smiles and joys to them... and they live happily ever after..................

ScAtTeR sCaTtEr !!!

i really wanted to write something today.. but there is no flow of thoughts... and if there is any.. it really is not making any sense... have deleted two cpmplete paragraphs after writing...

maybe i am not in a state to share the state of ma' mind !!!! needs a li'il regathering of thoughts...

hUh !!!

I have always thought about expectations and how they make you weak.. how they make you loose control over yourself as a person.. how easily they make you like someone or get angry when that someone does not meet some of your expectations...

its strange how even after I knowing everything and probably understanding most of it get into the trap of expectations...were the lessons learnt last year not good enough for me or what...

today prashant is angry with himself... and he promises himself YET AGAIN... that he is going to improve as a human being...as a person... easier said then done... human after all a human... can't really fight nature.. can i...

MoTiVaTiOn

Motivation... different times.. different sources... this one came from one of my dear friends Aseem... in an email.. made a lot of sense so thought of pasting it here.. instead of emailing it to everyone in the address book...

Five steps to staying positive in a negative world:
1. Understand that failure is an event, it is not a person. Yesterday ended last night; today is a brand new day, and it's yours. You were born to win, but to be a winner you must plan to win,prepare to win, and then you can expect to win.

2. Become a lifetime student. Learn just one new word everyday and in five years you will be able to talk with just about anybody about anything. When your vocabulary improves, your I.Q. goes up 100% of the time, according to Georgetown Medical School.

3. Read something informational or inspirational every day. Reading for 20 minutes at just 240 words per minute will enable you to read 20, 200-page books each year. That's 18 more than the average person reads! What an enormous competitive advantage . . . if you'll just read for 20 minutes a day.

4. The University of Southern California reveals that you can acquire the equivalent of two years of a college education in three years just by listening to motivational and educational cassettes on the way to your job and again on the way home. What could be easier?

5. Start the day and end the day with positive input into your mind. Inspirational messages cause the brain to flood with feel-good-about-yourself neurotransmitter. Begin and end the day by reading or doing something positive!

Dunno if this brings a change in the life of people who read this.. but its making sense to me.. how well i put this into practise is something that time will tell.. coz i have that real bad laid back attitude.. andi have to do something to fix that.. any suggestions on how i improve this about myself..

oVeR d'WeEkeNd !!!

Two days, 48 hours… how do they go by you… just can’t realise… anyway…there was some activity that happened in the last two days…
Saturday spent with Neha and Tushar again...Seems that my entire life is revolving around these two people these days :) anyway… we went to Nehru place to get our computers fixed and also buy some stuff… bought two web cams, 50 CDRs, 2 CDRWs, 1 CD case, and one brand new computer… though that was taken home by sushant...he was there with his sister and jijaji to buy a machine…

We spent a good 4 hours at the shop in Nehru place while the machines were being repaired and a new one being assembled…and then went to neha’s place to install the two web cams that we had bought…and somehow messed up with her NIC settings and she could not connect to the net anymore with her desktop…hehehehe.. Anyway... we left in the evening... tushar dropped me home…and then rushed to his place to get ready for office…

Yesterday...

Sunday was a less active day... spent most of the time in front of my desktop yesterday…copying CDs, downloading music and all…went to the market in the evening to buy the VCD of ICE AGE…one of the animation movies I love to love…

And back again in the office today…another week to go…waiting for Saturday to come over again…so that I can spend another weekend...doing something or the other…but I think I seriously need to think about doing something worthwhile in the weekends…

What can be done? Rather what all would I like to do over a weekend:

~Learn Guitar
~Study (something relevant to my job)
~Meet friends
~Watch a movie

Can’t really figure out… will need help as to what all can be done to make these two days count !!!

RaDhe rAdHe !!!

And Ladies and Gentlemen this is my CAR... Radha :) The fotograf was clicked in the parking lot of Dilli Haat

this foto becomes special to me for a number of reasons actually...
1) I am there :)
2) It has Radha
3) This is her first ever foto on the net

and last but not the least...

This has been clicked by one of the most special friends i have... Thank you Neha for this special and amazing foto.. and do not forget to thank chachi for the camera as well..

please welcome my car... a not so new but still shining Fiat Palio 1.2 NV Sport...mmmmmmmmmmuah to my chamko

V 3 :)

We three in Dilli Haat today, Me, Neha and Tushar... The foto was taken in my car :) after we moved from there.. thanks tu Forni the foto has come out real good...

This was a good afternoon spent in the company of two great friends... and ofcourse my radha...
Life is Good :)

thank you God :)

CoNgRaTuLaTiOnS !!!

This is about me and my blog... something that started in September 2004...my first blog... here is what I wrote...

“I would like to trigger a discussion on how life treats us and how it should be treated...when do we take risks in terms of education, jobs, and when is the right time for trying to settle down...when do you think money would drive discussions about changing jobs and when we start looking for a job if we are now looking for a profile change.. maybe more responsibilities.. and so on....”

When I read today.. I am like... what was I thinking when I wrote this... was the entire world waiting for me to start writing or what... :) I am smiling today on what I wrote on the 15th of September...but seems that I have come a long way from there...my need to depend on people for my emotional outbursts has reduced...I feel more independent emotionally now, more stable and also I feel that there are a few friends like Tushar, Pawan, Neha, Aarti, Vimita, Raina and a few more who are reading my blog but I am not aware of would be able to know what I am upto always.. So basically we keep in touch directly or indirectly.

I do not know where each of us is heading...but still I feel that I am doing that li’il which would keep me close to my friends... God bless them all!!!

Now why I really am writing this post... to congratulate myself on complete a 1000 visitors J I am not sure if about 50% of these visits are mine... but still that leaves me with 500 visits to my page J and I am really happy for myself...Actually I am feeling as if I am getting the attention that I always want!!! and thanks to everyone who reaches this page... by mistake or intentionally...spends a minute or more reading what is written...or closes the window...feels like commenting on what I have written...or ignores me thinking that I am one more of those stupid freaks who is completely confused in life...I reached the count of a 1000 visits...What follows is a break of what has been happening on this page since November 17:

Visits:
Total: 1028
Average per Day: 20
Average Visit Length: 4:45

I am happy!!!